Late Oct 2025 Progress Report
Building strong support networks despite the horrors.
“Progress” is a strong word, but it’s been a bit. Time to do one of these agaain.
I’ve been stuck in a rut these past two weeks. Back to back cyclical waves of depression have left me crippled, falling into bad habits to cope and doing little other than practicing Smash and drowning in YouTube. Both unhealthy for different reasons.
I did reconnect with some friends and start playing music again though.
Thanks to the efforts of an old friend of mine and his motivation to perform, I picked up my viola again. We’re gonna try to get our skills sharpened and build up a repertoire of originals and covers to perform at some local Open Mic places, to see if we can’t get involved with the local scene. Maybe bring some family into the fold as well and start recording some of our own music as well. Should be fun!
Beyond that, I’ve been taking drastic measures to fix things that have been getting in the way. Doing a social media purge, disconnected my Switch, trying to eat better, and making plans to seek out psych services to try to fix these cycles of depression and better deal with the executive dysfunction that’s been severely holding me back.
I’ve actually been making some good steps in the executive dysfunction department already, though! I made a Discord group with some friends, which is focused on working on personal projects, resource sharing, body doubling, and communal support. It’s been life-changing in some ways already. I’m hoping to keep leveraging it in the future.
Beyond that, I’m still trying to ease back into writing and drawing, with mixed results. In particular, my novel draft hasn’t seen any significant updates in a while, though not for lack of trying. Feels like it’s been months since I’ve been able to make progress there, even with how many times I’ve sat with the draft open in front of me ready to write. Just haven’t been able to get out of my current block.
Anyways, I know these post amount to shouting into the void right now, but writing them helps me assert to myself that I do care about this stuff that I’m working towards. And it’s nice to have something to say in this nice space.
Watching the community thriving on my feeds (especially on Bluesky) has been inspiring to me, and it’s constantly motivating me to push myself harder. I aim to be worthy of it soon.
Note from :
This post was originally written as a Bluesky post, which I've transposed here. In an effort to transition back to using this blog, I'm gonna try to do these updates here moving forward.